its new year. everyone is enjoying their new year except me. dont know why. i just felt like a normal day ystd night. when everyone screaming happy new year to each other, i just sat down quietly. just sucks. no mood past few days. planning to go out on 3rd jan. i hope you are not busy. if you're busy i either find a friend to go out or just go out on my own. 

and i hate you. simply hate you. i got sooooo pissed of with her the other day. ''at least once a month or wat we must have a family gathering. ask all the cousins, aunties and uncles to come. so that we can have more family bonding''. bullshit. u dont talk about family gathering and family bonding. your own family, a family of 4, dont even have a single family bonding, u wanna talk about rest of the families. u make my life hard. u cause all the pain in me. u know i just wish i wasnt born. i wouldnt have this much pain. wouldnt be a burden to anyone. each day living in pain. like as if u understand. i bet it would be better if i wasnt born to this world.
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