HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASMINEEEEE. hope you have an awesomeee day. stay pretty and smile always babe. love you :D

okayy i need go somewhere now. so bye

school gonna start in about 5-6days. im no done with holiday assignments.. still got a little bit of english left and poa. too lazy to do it. my holidays sucked big time. i havent bought any schoolbooks yet. i mean i only need to buy about 2 or 3books. and i havent bought it yet. wanted to buy a new bag but didnt. bought new school shoes. well the only thing i bought which is new is my school shoes. like wth. anywayyy im soooo not prepared to do my O's. i wanna slack. i rmb slacking so much in sec3 like not caring watever the teachers say and not even caring that our O's were just next year. all that was in our mind was ''heck care''. ohh how i miss those days. actually i missed my sec2 life more. if i could only rewind time. *sighs* and i miss my phone. why must they steal my phone. i wouldnt have mind if they stole my money. even if they stole $50, i wouldnt have mind. its been almost 5months without it. *crys*

i dont know why i get so excited on christmas. i mean i dont celebrate it. anyway ystd slept at 4.30am and woke up at 3.15pm today. late right? haha i know. then ate lunch at 3.30pm. and watched paa on vasnatham. very sad but very predictable. in the end he dies, the mum and dad get together before he dies. predictable. then watched dhool. not so interesting today. and watched alvin and the chipmunks. awwww theodore was extremely cute. i love watching tat movie. very cuteee. hmmm well thats abt it.

i wanna have straight hair. ):

been trying to find out which is better rebonding and soft rebonding. well, rebonding is super straight and lasts for abt a year. but soft rebonding is straight but with more natural look but doesnt last long. only last abt 3-6months. can i have straight hair puhhhhleaaaaase. im tired up my hair being like this.

found this place that does rebonding and all but its not that expensive. somewhere in serangoon north ave4.

y cant u let me have straight hair?! me wants straight hair. pleaaase

actually im happy and sad to see today's date. well im happy cos its me and him 10months. but im sad cos its my uncle's 9year death anniversary. )': i miss him. next year gonna do alot of prayers thingy for 10years death anniversary.

okay i dont wanna get too emotional so lemme update ystd. did pretty much nth. oh no wait. i cleaned my drawers. it took me 2hrs to look through the stuff i dont want and want. then took a break and called amirah. talked for a long time. then went to search for some poly coursebook thingy in my brother's room but couldnt find. dam. then go call her again and talked for like 1hour or so. i was talking to her and tidying up the drawers. aft talk to her alr and tidy up alr i forgot that they showing dhoom2 now. so i quickly run to the hall and on the tv. i missed the first hour. damm. but its ok i alr watched it before. then aft dhoom2 got dhool. my 2 fav groups went in to the finals. so yay. they danced the best. then ate mee siam and hash brown <3 then i watch teevee till 1.30am and then to sleep. oh yeahhh i got SOAR eyes. hahah sounds familiar ehh amirah? i mean i got sore eyes. dam itchy the eye. when i rub, it gets more itchy. then become more red. **** been putting the eyemo thing. still itchy le.. 

and ehhh baby, wat courses u apply? when the results?? which ite u wanna go? why nvr tell me? lol okayy too many qns rite. haha.

and amirah.. just be happy that u got a freaking phone. dont take that phone for granted cos when u no phone u will regret and realise that at least that stupid phone is better than no phone. take my wise words kay. i have been through it. lol good rite my advice?? hahah.

2 more days to 10months.

wow thats long.

<3

okayy i have been busy these few days. shopping and stuff. well for the first time she did smth useful i guess. anyway its hard to get clothes for my size. irritating much. in the children's size, its the biggest and adult's size, its the smallest. like wtf..so anywayy... bought some clothes and bought this heels which was purple in colour!! the moment i saw it, i was like droools. i gotta have it. well the heels wasnt high as i wanted but who cares. its purple in colour. me like!! so i bought it. it was wayyyyy too hard to resit that. then bought slipper and school shoes. i need more clothes esp tops! been eating outside alot tooo. me like pataya rice. esp the one at jalan kayu. i have realised smth.. i've been camwhoring alot. i have more pictures of myself  than i had in my phone. like whoa. and my mum asked if i wanted to go india with her and her 3 friends for 8-10 days in february. she said i could meet surya and take photo with him :DDDDD me like!! well i was thinking alot. go or not to go. her 3 friends are the only people i like in her other friends. there is rachel aunty, she is super nice. everytime she go overseas she will buy smth for me. only for me. there is saro aunty, she is very straight forward but in a good way though. and catherine aunty where she is super friendly and bubbly. so it wasnt that bad. i have never been to india though. i wanna meet surya real badly too. he is awesome! but if i go confirm when i come back got alot of hw. and i would miss him so much. but if i nver go i wont meet surya <3(well its not confirm though) and 8-10days without her would simply rock. so i have decided to not go india. anyway i can go india or other countries when im older. im just gonna party while she is away at india. hehe. and i soooooo damn miss him. and im done with tamil, maths sorta(gonna copy some) and science gonna finish. amirah say got POA and english hw. and she say its with jasmine. really?? damn i was so happy that im gonna finish my homework.. and amirah!! why cant i call u?! i call u they say starhub blahh blah blah..why cant i call u anymore )':

 i love this heels! look at that colour!! its beautiful. though i can only wear for some clothes but its sooo nice.

 not as high as i expected. but i love this.

i dont know why but i look freaking chubby here. but somehow i like it. lol..

 my brown eyes <3

 i feel that my eyes got brown-er. lol i know its impossible. but i never realised my eyes were so brown when i was in primary school. weird huh?

none of the pictures above were edited or taken with flash. coool huh. light effects rocks (:

so im not allowed to get angry issit? so u are saying its okay for him to be angry but its not okay for me to get angry.

its okay for him to show his anger by slamming the door or just leaving the hse or talk back but its not okay for me to show my anger.

its okay for him to go anywhere he likes with anyone but its not okay for me to go anywhere i like with anyone.

its okay for him to sleep till afternoon but its not okay for me to sleep till afternoon.

its okay if he uses the computer all day long but its not okay if i use the computer for long hrs.

its okay for him to buy fast food whenever he likes even though there is food at home but its not okay for me to eat fast food because there is food at home.

its okay for him to have watever he likes but its not okay for me to have watever i like.

its okay for him to have his needs and wants but its okay for me to have my needs and wants.

its okay if he doesnt want to go anywhere with u but its not okay if i dont want to go anywhere with u.

ouhhh i get it. its okay for him to do anything but its not okay for me to do anything. because to u its fair.

even after u tell him nt to come home late, he still comes home late. in fact even later like 2 or 3am. almost everyday. and what do u do abt tat?? u just tell him nt to come home late. thats it. no shouting,scolding or anything. last time when i came home 30mins late u would create 1 big scene abt it. yeahhh i get it, its fair to you.

have u ever asked how was my day?? have u ever wondered how im feeling?? have u ever even bothered abt my feelings? have u ever knew how much pain i have inside of me. no u dont. well yes im the kind of person who bottles everything up inside of me. but have u ever asked abt my opinion abt anything? no u dont.

im sick and tired of living in this hse.

okay ystd i was forced to wake up at 12.45pm. yes forced to wake up. i hadda go to my aunty's new shop with my dad. so got ready and stuff and left ard 2.45pm. well i took 2hrs to get ready. hahah very long rite. anyway we were supposed to take train to clementi. but.. i hate taking trains. HATE IT. so i keep pstering my dad to take a taxi.  i hadda make a deal with him. go there,take taxi. come back, take train. well he said no at first but..i kept begging and it worked! im so proud of myself. haha anyway. cabbed there. went to shop. well its smaller than their previous shop. and i mean seriously small. anyway, we went to grandma's hse since the shop and grandma's hse was super near. over there met cousins and aunty and grandma. talked to cousins. then played scrabble. haha very fun. esp when i was winning. i had more brains than my cousin who was 4yrs older than me (:

yeahhh more self praise. we laughed so much when she knew she will confirm lose so she started cheating. you wouldnt understand. but it was damn funny. talked, played, talked, and played. very fun. then my another aunty came. she looked at me and said, " u already so pretty and everytime i see u, u get even more pretty". and i started laughing so much. its very funny u see. so stayed there a little while and went back to the shop with my 2cousins and aunty and my dad. bought some stuffs there. esp NUTELLA. u know wat. the last time i ate nutella was like 6-7 months ago. thats super long. anw kind of played with the cash register. very fun and super complicated. then went outside the shop and sit down at this place where got chairs and table. talked with cousins. talked abt life, studies, ghost stories! oooh spooky. really scary. and ohhh my cousin gonna gimme tuition! how fun!! lol. i mean serious. she gonna come my hse and teach and ill be going her hse and learn. sort of. ill probably be learning on how to have fun. haha. then one of my cousin came in motorbike. wow he kinda looks hot. i mean he changed alot. he used to be like a fucked up person and now like a gentleman?! wow thats like a major change. and since i wore high heels, i had many many blisters. booo hooos. stupid heels. sometimes painful sometimes not painful. haiyaz.. then i told my dad that i had blisters and i cant walk. so we took taxi!! woooohooos. actually i can walk but abot painful. hehe. then homed~~~

and i have a sad news. i lost my tastebuds. i dont find chocolates nice anymore ):  i super ultra sad. me loves chocolates. but now me no likey them. how sad......

but good news. i only have 2more compos. then im done with tamil hw. still got maths and science though.. but still im gonna be done with it.

okay super long post. so buhhhbyes

you liar! i knew it was too good to be true. you always do this. ALWAYS. 

and you know what, im starting to hate her and him again.

Want you to make me feel

Like I'm the only girl in the world
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world...
Like I'm the only one that's in command
Cuz I'm the only one who understands

How to make you feel like a man..yeah

Ooh na na, what’s my name
Ooh na na, what’s my name
Ooh na na, what’s my name
Ooh na na, what’s my name
Ooh na na, what’s my name
whats my name, whats my name

<3

yayyyy! my baby is back. talked to him just now. awwww i love you so so so so much <3 anyway. lets seeeee what i did today. hmmmms. woke up at 12.30. watched teeeveee. wanted to do homework but... u know me. got lazy and stuff. so i didnt do. tried calling him ard 1+. didnt pick up. so tried again at ard 2. also nvr pick up. so i went to eat maggie meeeeeee. aft that i tried calling again ard 2.40. he picked up :D finally. sowi for waking you up. just wanted to hear ur voice. cos i had missed you so damn much. now i dunno what to say. okay pictures maybe?

 ahhhhhh. beautiful isnt it. took it from my kitchen's window. sunset. <3

this is a gingerbreadman. i tried drawing him cos gingerbreadman are very adorable.

 this is Mr. Gingy. he is a gingerbreadman. i love gingy. so here is my Gingy! isnt he cuteeee? i love gingy! he is very adorable and cute gingerbreadman. god i feel like eating him. but i wont. cos gingy is way too cute to be eaten.

 GINGY! gingy is a very cute name for gingerbreadman. right or not?? (:

aaaaaaahhhhhhh! this brings me so much memories. took us a long time to realise how dumb we were. god i miss her.

im so bored. well anyway i wanna post some pictures. you know like memories. i was looking at my camera photos ystd and felt like posting some pictures.

 jasmineeee! awwww she so cute. she looks like a baby. haha!

 this picture is awesome. but wait. JASMINE! where u looking?!

 this is my favourite picture. cos everytime i see this i laugh. 

1stly. jasmine closing her eyes.

2ndly. syafidah is the only one smiling. but she so cute.

3rdly. syafinaz looking dunno where.

and lastly my favourite. amirah looking so damn blurr. i see her face in this picture i laugh. haha love u girl.

 jasmine. focus...

 extras much.

 would have been a great picture but too bad its blurr.

 all acting cute except jasmine. (:

 best picture. but u know jasmine.. i was being SQUEEEEEZED by the sofa and amirah. u could have moved to ur left since there is so much space.. so yeahh thanks.

 i was talking to my baby. but i dont know why im standing like im gonna sing the national anthem.

 love this picture. love her.

 2,3,1 (:

 love this picture lots! poor amirah

this is our evil faces. except amirah. she has the 'pity me' face.

love them to the max.

ok thats all for now. buhhhhbyes.